So, I'm not exactly sure whether or not this is going to work. For right now, I'm just writing to myself, but somehow putting out there on the web makes it more real. I'm not intentionally going to show this to anyone I know, but if they come across it, oh well.
Right now I think I just want to set out some of the things I hope to accomplish in the next few months, and beyond as I chronicle the next steps in my life. And it's cheaper than therapy, right?
1) Figure out just what it is I want to do with my life. I've been working as a nanny for the past 3 and a half years. It is a difficult job, as anyone who takes care of children can tell you. Part of what makes it difficult is how close you get to the children, and their families. You grow to love the children as much as you possibly can without being related to them. You spend more time with them than most of their relatives, because not everyone is lucky enough to live near their extended families. But at the end of the day you are an employee, who can be let go without notice. And no contact with the children whom you've helped to care for and raise for the past two years. But more on that later, when it's not 1:30 in the morning.
2) Try to find a purpose. I'm not just talking about a career, but truly try to figure out what my purpose in life is.
3) To do a better job of incorporating health and wellness into my everday life. I have been blessed enough to maintain overall good health despite being overweight for the past 10 years. It's something that I've fought with and gone up and down with for most of those 10 years. I was in a good pattern six months ago prior to my sister's wedding, but have since slacked off. My goal is to start and maintain a regular exercise pattern, and create a healthier environment in my home.
Part of that is getting more sleep. So for now, with this non proof-read, non-edited posting, I say goodnight.
